Ok, so I’ve had 2 decks in the past, thi
Question
Ok, so I’ve had 2 decks in the past, this is my third, I’ve had it for 5 almost 6 years, I made the cards myself and adored them but they don’t feel like me anymore and I don’t feel as connected to them as I did, I’ve changed a lot, should I get new ones?
Answer
The bond you had with this deck is already finished — the cards confirm what you already know, and whether to buy new ones is the smaller, separate question.
Past — Two of Cups, reversed. The love-affair you had with the cards you made yourself was real, and it drifted as you did. The two cups in this card tip away from each other; nothing broke, they just stopped pouring for one another.
Present — Nine of Cups, upright. They still give you something. Comfort, ritual, a familiar weight in the hand. This is the wish-card — the satisfaction is genuine, just quieter than it was.
Future — Ten of Swords, upright. The flat, named ending. Not a punishment, not a warning — the moment you notice the ground is already under you. You don't need to perform the goodbye; it's already been said.
Judgment. If what you still get from these cards is the ritual and the satisfaction (Nine of Cups), you can keep reading with them and let a new deck arrive when it arrives. If the satisfaction has gone too — if you reach for them out of habit rather than want — then the Ten of Swords has already done its work and a new deck is a kindness to the reader you are now, not a betrayal of the one who made them.
One step inside the next 48 hours, alone. Pick one deck you have been quietly curious about and spend fifteen minutes with it in your hand — at a shop, borrowed from a friend, a printed sample laid on the table. Don't buy, don't promise. Notice what your hand and shoulders do. That body-check is the one thing the cards can't do for you.
Want this saved to your journal, or the spread drawn as a picture?