Are my readings showing my subconscious

Both, mostly in the same move — but the honest weight sits on the first.

A spread is a picture of the question, so what comes back is heavily tinted by the stance you're already in. Cards name tensions and leanings you are carrying: an offer you're ambivalent about draws as ambivalence, not as a schedule. That's why a reading usually feels uncannily accurate and rarely tells you anything you didn't half-know.

The "future" reading is possible, but only as a tendency under a condition, and it needs an outside check to mean anything. A card can say "under this pressure, you'll tend toward X." It cannot tell you a date, and it doesn't know what Tuesday looks like.

The practical test for any reading: ask what you would have to see in the next week for the card to be true. If nothing you could observe would move it, you were looking in a mirror. If something could, go look at that thing.

One thing you can start: after your next spread, write down one detail you noticed in your own week that matches the card — before you ask the card anything. Do that a few times and you'll see for yourself which of the two it's been doing.

Want to test it properly — I can pull one card for a live question, and we check it against the week as it actually goes?